The writer of this material must also note that he and his mother
had a horrible fight upon heading back to our motel from the Denny's
near Downtown Roseburg, shortly before we went to cross the Umpqua
River Bridge near I-5, no less. Apparently, Mother Janet had taken
exception to me being a “Grand Poo-Bah” who was “inherently
selfish and greedy, and wanted to eat up all the food, and not do any
of the paying for it, all the while not giving any thanks, or credit
for the one who did pay for it.” Needless to say, the writer of
this material was instantly infuriated and outraged, at these very
truthful and accurate allegations, and told Mother Janet to “Fuck
Off, And Leave Me Alone!”. To which was met, “What Did You Say To
Me?!?”. I then replied, “Look, I'm sorry for being a pig, and I'm
sorry for not giving credit where it was due.” To which Mother
replied, “All right, you seem to have acknowledged your shortcoming
and seem to be sincere (a very BIG deal for Mother, if you're not
honest with her, she gets mad VERY quickly). Okay, let's put this
debacle behind us, and cross the bridge that's in front of us.” to
which I said, “Alright.” I was a bit disturbed by this particular
fight, even worse than the one we'd had a couple days before, since
until the time we had hit the road, we had been getting along well
before that. Suffice to say, this was a stark example of how the
author's short sighted, impatient, and selfish behavior often
passively causes other people to be mad at him (whether they are
self-honest enough to admit that fact or not), then I “counterpunch”
them with my own hyped-up disproportionate retaliatory strike, and
either provoke the other person into wanting to kick my ass, or run
away from me. In either case, I come off as a total tyrant, bully,
and an asshole, and nobody wants to be my friend, and everyone hates
me, and then I hate them right back for their own defiance and
impudence. It's a vicious cycle. But now I understand, people can't
bring themselves to like me, because they can't bring themselves to
trust me, because of my selfish streak, mean temper, and lack of
empathy, feeling, or regard for the boundaries (and rights) of
others. I am my own worst enemy.
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